Yeah, yeah, yeah....I know I have been MIA from the blog for a week - Sorry!! So let me catch you up:
First, I do have the pictures of my kitchen made over BBC style - and I promise to get them up!
It has been a great week - I am feeling great, gaining back confidence I lost, and am still loving the workouts! The food is going so much better - I think I have figured it out (that only took three weeks).
I am seeing such an improvement in all the girls - to look at the board after a cardio day you would not know that this was the same group of women that walked in to the gym four weeks ago!! 61 Firehose slams, 17 Burpees, 23 burpees - AMAZING!! GO US!!! I really think we are all having fun smashing our personal bests...and seeing how far we can push ourselves.
I know for me personally I feel like in the past three days I have a reached a place where I can push thru the voices in my head saying "I can't" - and just do it! Growing up, one of my basketball coaches would call me "Can't Do" (in fact he still does) because I would let those same little voices tell me I couldn't "go hard to the rim or box him out". Many a Saturday practice ended with me in tears telling him I couldn't do it. He would call me "Can't Do" just to piss me off. With a little confidence and trust in my coach (and in myself) I realized that I could keep that rebound away from him. That is where I am now - realizing that I can dig deep and do it. Today for example, I had to do push ups so I got on my knees - Ben looked at me and said "get on your toes". I reluctantly got on toes and looked at him and said "I can't do (see there that nickname is) 15 push ups on my toes". Would you believe before class was over I had done 45?!?!? Just putting that trust in myself and Ben gave me the confidence that I could do it.
So much about this journey has been about weight loss, a new body type and smaller jeans, but for me this week has been about finding myself again. Finding a confidence I thought was long lost...realizing that I can do it. To me that is so much more important than any number on a scale. I am loving this opportunity and I can't wait to see where this new journey will take me!!
So I apologize for not writing in the past week - I'll do better...promise!!
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It's hard to believe that you- beautiful tall Erica would ever struggle with self confidence. It's so funny how no matter how others view us, what we feel inside is so different... I have thought from day one that you are a Can DO kind of girl, and haven't really seen you back down from that. You have impressed me all along. I guess we all have the same inner demons that we are fighting after all! The good news- we are kicking their asses everyday in that gym, and we are transforming. Our dreams are coming true, and I think that all 5 of us are so blessed to be doing it together and having someone so awesome as Ben to lead us.
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You are seriously killing it every day Erica. Keep doing what you are doing because it is working well. Your mindset is priceless
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